I'm terrified of being out here in the real world again.
( TRIGGER WARNING: SELF-HARM )Sometimes I just want to go get drunk or something just so I don't have to feel it all. I'm not better. I'm not. They said I was, but I'm not and I don't know if I ever will be.
I don't even know if this is Lissa or if it's me. I don't know how to even tell.